You know the feeling when a presence is slowly leaving your energy field? Your body memory is gradually forgetting and there is a sustained emptiness. A restless
and nervous weight overcomes
you while waiting to be replaced with the new…
You know the feeling when a presence is slowly leaving your energy field? Your body memory is gradually forgetting and there is a sustained emptiness. A restless
and nervous weight overcomes
you while waiting to be replaced with the new…
My childhood teacher….
Everything in our world is connected by the delicate strands of the web of life, which is balanced between the forces of destruction and the magic forces of creation.
FernGully, 1992
We are shadows caste upon the moon
Half awake, all with a different tune
“The stars are very close tonight
Can you show me your in-side out?”
As the earth dissolves into the atmosphere
It’s not who we are it’s what we hear
In this darkness my mind creates ideas
All wrapped up in a stream of desires
And once I let go of their control over me
Her light can shine through and I will be free
And I hear her say,
“The stars are very close tonight;
Can you show me your in-side out?”
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Seal my heart and brake my pride
I’ve nowhere to stand and now nowhere to hide
Align my heart, my body, my mind
To face what I’ve done and do my time
We are shadows caste upon the moon
Half awake, all with a different tune
The stars are very close tonight
Can you show me your in-side out?
As the earth dissolves into the atmosphere
Touch me. Kill me.
Higher and higher…
We are lovely beings. True love stems from inviting and releases others to find that for themselves. My love has led me here, a seeker following my heart’s true calling, always guided by the universe. Look deeper or don’t try at all. Through your own truth, stop dreaming and start doing. True, as you reach your dreams you ascend higher and higher and the burn can be much more potent. But every fallen angel learns to fly again as they are awakened and come closer to their true path.
My dreams are grand and every day is a day pulling me closer or further away. What can I do but be my dreams and not think of them as a destination? As I follow my intuition and participate in my passions, I will continuously be provided for. There is no need to plan, desire, or want. There is only ‘doing’ and the rest will take care of itself.
So what is stopping me from doing? What are these chains that keep me again and again from going out to satisfy my dreams? The weight has become unbearable and the pressure to break free is growing more and more immensely against my chest and back. Those wings, yearning to fly, like a fallen angel who can see past the gates and knows possibility. Those wings, which I have chained down so weightily and it is only I who holds the key.
What can I do to turn this all around?
Action
Movement
The body yearning to express
Use your motion, your ancient hips, and your deep curves of many moons, your firm and tender hands. Take those blessings and stir up the energy to move and cultivate all that you need.
Remember this as you lay still.
Remember you were meant to move. Flow. Swirl and spin.
In order for me to do, “x”, I need “y”.
I believe I don’t have, “y” and therefore cannot do, “x”.
America I’ve given you all and now I’m nothing.
America two dollars and twenty-seven cents January 17, 1956.
I can’t stand my own mind.
America when will we end the human war?
Go fuck yourself with your atom bomb
I don’t feel good don’t bother me.
I won’t write my poem till I’m in my right mind.
America when will you be angelic?
When will you take off your clothes?
When will you look at yourself through the grave?
When will you be worthy of your million Trotskyites?
America why are your libraries full of tears?
America when will you send your eggs to India?
I’m sick of your insane demands.
When can I go into the supermarket and buy what I need with my good looks?
America after all it is you and I who are perfect not the next world.
Your machinery is too much for me.
You made me want to be a saint.
There must be some other way to settle this argument.
Burroughs is in Tangiers I don’t think he’ll come back it’s sinister.
Are you being sinister or is this some form of practical joke?
I’m trying to come to the point.
I refuse to give up my obsession.
America stop pushing I know what I’m doing.
America the plum blossoms are falling.
I haven’t read the newspapers for months, everyday somebody goes on trial for murder.
America I feel sentimental about the Wobblies.
America I used to be a communist when I was a kid and I’m not sorry.
I smoke marijuana every chance I get.
I sit in my house for days on end and stare at the roses in the closet.
When I go to Chinatown I get drunk and never get laid.
My mind is made up there’s going to be trouble.
You should have seen me reading Marx.
My psychoanalyst thinks I’m perfectly right.
I won’t say the Lord’s Prayer.
I have mystical visions and cosmic vibrations.
America I still haven’t told you what you did to Uncle Max after he came over from Russia.
I’m addressing you.
Are you going to let our emotional life be run by Time Magazine?
I’m obsessed by Time Magazine.
I read it every week.
Its cover stares at me every time I slink past the corner candystore.
I read it in the basement of the Berkeley Public Library.
It’s always telling me about responsibility. Businessmen are serious. Movie producers are serious. Everybody’s serious but me.
It occurs to me that I am America.
I am talking to myself again.
Asia is rising against me.
I haven’t got a chinaman’s chance.
I’d better consider my national resources.
My national resources consist of two joints of marijuana, millions of genitals, an unpublishable private literature that goes 1400 miles an hour, and twenty-five-thousand mental institutions.
I say nothing about my prisons nor the millions of underpriviliged who live in my flowerpots under the light of five hundred suns.
I have abolished the whorehouses of France, Tangiers is the next to go.
My ambition is to be President despite the fact that I’m a Catholic.
America how can I write a holy litany in your silly mood?
I will continue like Henry Ford my strophes are as individual as his
automobiles more so they’re all different sexes
America I will sell you strophes $2500 apiece $500 down on your old strophe
America free Tom Mooney
America save the Spanish Loyalists
America Sacco & Vanzetti must not die
America I am the Scottsboro boys.
America when I was seven momma took me to Communist Cell meetings they
sold us garbanzos a handful per ticket a ticket costs a nickel and the
speeches were free everybody was angelic and sentimental about the
workers it was all so sincere you have no idea what a good thing the party
was in 1835 Scott Nearing was a grand old man a real mensch Mother
Bloor made me cry I once saw Israel Amter plain. Everybody must have
been a spy.
America you don’re really want to go to war.
America it’s them bad Russians.
Them Russians them Russians and them Chinamen. And them Russians.
The Russia wants to eat us alive. The Russia’s power mad. She wants to take
our cars from out our garages.
Her wants to grab Chicago. Her needs a Red Reader’s Digest. her wants our
auto plants in Siberia. Him big bureaucracy running our fillingstations.
That no good. Ugh. Him makes Indians learn read. Him need big black niggers.
Hah. Her make us all work sixteen hours a day. Help.
America this is quite serious.
America this is the impression I get from looking in the television set.
America is this correct?
I’d better get right down to the job.
It’s true I don’t want to join the Army or turn lathes in precision parts
factories, I’m nearsighted and psychopathic anyway.
America I’m putting my queer shoulder to the wheel.